Assalamualaikum and hello everyone.
it has been a while since i wrote anything.. in fact it has been years... at this moment, i am experiencing one of the lowest points in my life... my relationship life is being tested... both by god and other people... rather than keeping it all inside.. a good friend told me that writing it out will give you release, clarity and be able to process your thoughts... so here i am.. writing this down..
the relationship between my self and my soulmate is being jeopardized.. i would go as far as to say its being sabotaged... and this is done by her own family... yes... HER own family... i love her and she loves me... but her family wants to arrange a marriage for her to a son of a rich family... mind you the family did this full knowing that i have plans to marry their daughter... f#$%ed up right?
at first she hid this from me... but we promised each other that we wouldn't keep secrets from each other... and she explained to me everything... about herself, her situation, her family, the politics involved, etc... it finally dawned on me... she's trapped... held hostage by her own family... her family is mixed but mainly of malay blood... but they are far from being malay at all... they family drinks... parties... keep dogs... and almost any imaginable and unimaginable act of sin human kind can think off....
my soulmate told me how she came to realize that how she was brought up and how her family was living... is wrong... she recalled days when she didn't have any direction in life... she told me about her past loves... and about her family...
some of you may, especially those who are less forgiving, would say to me "eh, you shouldn't marry her la. she has a bad background"...
however, who am i to judge people? my soulmate told me in all honesty that the moment she met me, she wanted to change and she is trying her best to change... and all the things she has done for me proves that... she has loved me unconditionally... she is the most honorable individual i have met.. she understands me so well.. and from the moment we met we knew we were special...
going back to the issue at hand, her family is currently making arrangements for her to marry the son of the rich man... and she is flying back to malaysia today from the UK... in full honesty.. i am scared... i am frightened.. i find it hard to breathe... my stomach is in knots... all i can do now is turn to allah... and put all my faith in my soulmate.. she has told me countless times to trust her and she has never betrayed me... I've learned that she is not the type of woman who would break my heart.. especially when she has taken care of my heart from the moment we met...
all i can do now is wait... and pray... that true love will conquer all :)
thank you everyone
Friday, May 30, 2014
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