30th June 2009 (Weddings, 4107, The Way I Am)

hello peeps!! this weekend is very eventful!! ^_^ 

it started off with a wedding reception at rizqun for my cousin Aman. it was beautiful especially when they played the video he made. i shed tears of joy as i watched it ^_^ i would like to make a video for that event, when the time comes ;)

next was the empire stay, now dubbed the famous 4107, where legends were made, rules were broken, drinks were downed, and snoring was recognized~~ LOL! the participants were Janet, Delvin, Loosy, Eve and Tong. we played taboo, which tong found very interesting, circle of death, we ended it with talking and sleeping~~ as it stand, the bandarians are leading in the taboo score!! ^_^ a weekly challenge will be in the works to determine who is better, bandar vs KB, an epic battle!! ;p

now, the song that has caught my attention is The Way I Am by Ingrid Michaelson. i found this at one of my friend's blogs, she was showing the video, i was bored, so i clicked, and i loved it!!! (shoutz to mizah, here's her blog: http://mizahheartpink.blogspot.com/ ) here are the lyrics!! ^_^

 

The Way I Am

By

Ingrid Michaelson

If you were falling, then I would catch you

You need a light, I'd find a match

Cuz I love the way you say good morning

And you take me the way I am

If you are chilly, here take my sweater

Your head is aching; I'll make it better

Cuz I love the way you call me baby

And you take me the way I am

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair

Sew on patches to all you tear

Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise

And you take me the way I am

You take me the way I am

You take me the way I am

I guess thats all for now peeps!!!

Ciao

26th June 2009 (Friends, Michael Jackson dies, The Mentalist)

hey peeps!!! another day, another post!! ^_^

quick update, last night i went to kuala lurah with D and J and we had a good time ^_^ we ate and ate and ate~~~~~ the food was just too good~~~~ and we met another friend while we were there, Jen. we had quite a conversation, covering all sorts of things, friendship, communication, etc. i mentioned to them that we are missing one more member in our outing hehehe... i think its time to open up my contact list and shop for a 4th ;) we stocked up on some stuff, so we're ready for 2moro!!!!! ^_^

on another note, while i was out, michael jackson up and died!! sad as it is, he had a good run.

a few days ago i bought the complete first season of the mentalist!! its so cool, and i can continue from where i left off!! ^_^ for those who do not know, it is a story of a man with an ability to read into anyone or any situation, and he is on the hunt for a killer called "Red John", whislt helping the CBI with their crime investigations. its funny, witty, classy and more!! i recommend it!! ^_^

okay peeps, time for me to go!! later today i have a wedding to go to. my cousin, aman, is getting married!! ^_^ congratulations to him!!!

Ciao

25th June 2009 ( Transformers 2)

hello peeps!! ^_^

last night i went to watch the new transformers movie and it.... was.... awesome!!!! ^_^ i went with teeny, whom i havent seen in a while, and very young, cute and lovable niece, hana. now i didnt actually plan on watching the movie last night. it was a last minute sort of decision. it all started yesterday afternoon i think, when i msged her on msn asking her abt her nick (yes, now i know not to do direct translation of words :p). while we got talking, she asked me if i had watched the new transformers movie (which is awesome ^_^). then i replied that i was planning to go but i just didnt have anyone to go with, and she just volunteered to watch it with me (at my expense ;p) right abt this time, her nephews and nieces heard that she was going to watch a movie, so they wanted to come as well!! hana was the first to ask, and since the mother said okay, im okay with that too ^_^

mental note, never ever depend on the phone lines when booking a new movie!! i called empire, qlap and the mall, and most of the time the phone lines were either busy or no one picked up. in the end, i got a booking for a 9pm show at the mall, 3rd row from the front, which is not really good bcoz its too close to the screen AND its quite late. so... i told teeny that we shud drop by qlap and see if they ahve any good seats left... and they did!!! ^_^ teeny said something really funny when we got out fo the car, which i am going to translate to english (hehe), "from the looks of it, people might think that hana is our daughter!" then i told her that it wont be the first time that wud have happened to me (hahaha!)

after 2 and 1/2 hours of awesomeness, i sent teeny and the niece home. on the way back, teeny asked hana to call her mom, and then we went to a kaling shop to get hana a toothbrush. now i know where her new house it ^_^

anyway, be sure to catch the movie peeps, its worth watching ^_^


ciao

23rd June 2009 (Bicycle, Sunrise and the best day of your life)

Morning peeps!!! this might be my earliest post yet!!

yesterday, a few things happened!

while i was waiting for my fren, D, at RC, i decided to talk to yan abt my coming over to work for him. next thing u know, i was on the road, on the way to BLNG!! well he did say, it was only for a short while..... yeah right! it was more like hours.. by the time i got back to RC batu besurat, it was already 9:30pm!!! i was more worried that D was waiting for a long time since i promised earlier than that.... but bless his soul, he was there waiting and i dunno how many times i said sorry to him... sorry again bro :(

anyway, we got talking about a few things, and afterwards i know what i shud do ^_^ i dun say this enuf to him... thank you!! ^_^ you cant buy friendship like this, and for that i am grateful.

on another side note, while we were sitting down, there was a guy riding a bicycle... normally people would not notice him... but this bicycle had a package... in the form of a young child!! this baby was in the backseat, that looks like a make shift baby-holder... the thing was, both the dad (well im assuming its the dad) and the baby looked very happy together... and it was very cute.... although D did point out that its quite dangerous which is valid.. but i cant help but see the happiness of them spending time with each other... and past father's day, its a sweet memory for that dad and maybe for the baby as well ^_^

all that has happened last night amde me realize that somethings are just out of your control... you can mope around abt it, be sad, be depressed, be alone... or you can show up to others, share your worries with someone, make today the best day of our lives ^_^


well thats all peeps!!! back to work!! ^_^

Ciao

21th June 2009 (Sephia,Lie, Matters of the heart and the mind)

Sephia

By

Sheila on 7

Hey,Sephia

Malam ini ku takkan datang

Mencoba 'tuk berpaling sayang

Dari cintamu

Hey,Sephia

Malam ini ku takkan pulang

Tak usah kau mencari aku,demi cintamu

Hadapilah ini

Kisah kita takkan abadi

S'lamat tidur kekasih gelap ku[ooo.....Sephia]

S'moga cepat kau lupakan aku

Kekasih sejatimu takkan pernah sanggup untuk melupakanmu

S'lamat tidur kasih tak terungkap [ooo.....Sephia]

S'moga kau lupakan aku cepat

Kekasih sejatimu takkan pernah sanggup untuk meninggalkanmu

Hey,Sephia

Jangan pernah panggil namaku

Bila kita bertemu lagi

Dilain hariHadapilah ini

Kisah kita takkan abadi

S'lamat tidur kekasih gelap ku[ooo.....Sephia]

S'moga cepat kau lupakan aku

Kekasih sejatimu takkan pernah sanggup untuk melupakanmu

S'lamat tidur kasih tak terungkap [ooo.....Sephia]

S'moga kau lupakan aku cepat

Kekasih sejatimu takkan pernah sanggup untuk meninggalkanmu 

Lie

By

Big Bang

Yuh-ba-sae-yo...

Yuh-ba-sae-yo?

(yeah) love is pain

Dedicated to all my broken-hearted people

One's old a flame... just scream my name

And i'm so sick of love songs (yeah)

I hate them damn love songs... moment of ours

(geo-jis-mar)

Neuj-eun bam bi-ga nae-ryeo-wa neor de-ryeo-wa

Jeoj-eun gi-eog kkeut-e dwi-cheog-yeo na

Neo eobs-i jar sar su iss-da-go

Da-jim hae-bwa-do eo-jjeor su eobs-da-go

Mos-ha-neun sur-do ma-si-go

Sog-ta-neun mam bam-sae chae-wo-bwa-dosirh-eo neo eobs-neun ha-ru-neun gir-eo bir-eo

Je-bar ij-ge hae-dar-ra-go (-geo-jis-mar-i-ya)

Neo eobs-neun nae-gen us-eum-i bo-i-ji anh-a

Nun-mur-jo-cha go-i-ji anh-a

Deo-neun sar-go sip-ji anh-a

Yeah

Yeos-gat-ae

Yeor-bad-ge

Ni saeng-gag-e

Dor-a-beo-rir-geos gat-ae

Bo-go sip-eun-de

Bor su-ga eobs-de

Mo-du kkeut-nass-de

I'll be right here

I'm so sorry but i love you da geo-jis-mar

I-ya mor-rass-eo i-je-ya ar-ass-eo ne-ga pir-yo-hae

I'm so sorry but i love you nar-ka-ro-un mar

Hwas-gim-e na-do mo-reu-ge neor tteo-na-bo-naess-ji-man

I'm so sorry but i love you da geo-jis-mar

I'm so sorry but i love you

I'm so sorry but i love you

(i love you more and more)

I'm so sorry but i love you na-reur tteo-na

Cheon-cheon-hi ij-eo-jur-rae

Nae-ga a-pa-har su iss-ge

Geu-daer wi-hae-seo bur-reo-wass-deon nae mo-deun geor da ba-chin no-rae

(a-ma sa-ram-deur-eun mo-reu-gess-jyo)

Nan hon-ja,, geu a-mu-do a-mu-do mor-rae

(geu-rae nae-ga haess-deon mar-eun geo-jis-mar)

Hor-ro nam-gyeo-jin oe-tor-i

Geu sog-e he-me-neun nae kkor-i

Ju-meo-ni sog-e kko-gis-kko-gis

Jeob-eo-dun i-byeor-eur hyang-han jjog-ji (hey)

(neon eo-dis-na-yo neor bu-reu-neun seub-gwan-do)

Nan dar-ra-jir-rae

I-jen da us-eo-neom-gir-ge

I'm so sorry but i love you da geo-jis-mar

I-ya mor-rass-eo i-je-ya ar-ass-eo ne-ga pir-yo-hae

I'm so sorry but i love you nar-ka-ro-un mar

Hwas-gim-e na-do mo-reu-ge neor tteo-na-bo-naess-ji-man

I'm so sorry but i love you da geo-jis-mar

I'm so sorry but i love you

(i love you more and more)

I'm so sorry but i love you na-reur tteo-na

Cheon-cheon-hi ij-eo-jur-rae

Nae-ga a-pa-har su iss-ge

Oh oh oh oh oh

Mo-deun-ge kkum-i-gir

Oh oh oh

I-geos-bakk-e an-doe-neun na-ra-seo

Drop that thing...

A-jig-do neo-reur mos ij-eo

A-ni pyeong-saeng-eur ga-do (yeah)

Jug-eo-seo-kka-ji-do

Nae-ga jun sang-cheo a-mur-eoss-neun-ji

Mi-an-hae a-mu-geos-do

Hae-jun-ge eobs-neun na-ra-seo

I'm so sorry but i love you da geo-jis-mar

I-ya mor-rass-eo i-je-ya ar-ass-eo ne-ga pir-yo-hae

I'm so sorry but i love you nar-ka-ro-un mar

Hwas-gim-e na-do mo-reu-ge neor tteo-na-bo-naess-ji-man

I'm so sorry but i love you da geo-jis-mar (but i love you)

I'm so sorry (so sorry) but i love you

(i love you more and more)

I'm so sorry but i love you na-reur tteo-na

Cheon-cheon-hi ij-eo-jur-rae

Nae-ga a-pa-har su iss-ge

Bye bye...

denial, rejection, i have lived most of my life denying my heart, and my mind rejecting my feelings.... for someone who has insight on other, its not easy for me to have insight to myself... im sick of just waiting, im sick of just wondering.... 

for the last few month, my mind has been rejecting a thought in my head.. and i only realized it for the past few days... and it hurts... it feels like you chest is heavy, like carrying a dead weight... its strange how some things still catch by surprise... i never expected to have this feeling.... it was far from my mind... but apparently... my heart was saying it all along... 

am i afraid? yes i am... will it stop me from doing what i feel is right? thats only for me to decide... my mind keeps on playing all sorts of outcomes for it... some were good, some were bad.... but i then realized that its still all in my mind.... the truth is... i do not know what is gonna be the outcome... thats what scares me... but... if i dun own up and take the leap... i will regret this forever... and my mind will still ask the question, "what would have happened?".... i dun want that... i dun want to regret... i will do it....

Ciao

15th June 2009 (The Platinum Rule, The Other 'You', Don't Trust Me)

hi peeps!!! its been a while since i've properly sat down and written something ^_^

okay, the first thing i want to mention, the platinum rule from how i met your mother!!! 

it rules about dating someone who you see on a regular basis, like workmates, neighbors, etc.

i'll be doing illustrations from my own experience!! this should be fun ^_^

Step 1: Attraction - The ignition of desire

Attraction, it could take place anytime, anywhere, even a second... and once it happens, it cannot be stopped~~~~~ like the time i laid my eyes on a certain girl and went off with her one night(and she shall not be named ;p)........... and thats when!
Step 2: Bargaining - Weighing the possibilities with close friends

We make up all sorts excuses to quantify the reasoning behind going for someone.... we go to the same school, we like the same things, he'she thinks i'm funny..... and even when friends tell us that its not gonna work out... we will always say "nah, i think it'll be okay"... oh but it didnt turn out okay.... just like when i argued with my friend about going off with the girl that night....... and then!!!
Step 3: Submission - Jumping in

The point where you literally jump in.... just like me and the girl..... haha, that was a night to remember.... and thats when!!
Step 4: Perks - Relishing in the "benefits" of the relationship

The benefits you gain from  dating them... standing lunch dates, a partner to hang out with, go to movies with.... in my case it was the money that she earned, bcoz back then i was still a student and broke ;p...... the perks will be  great for a while but then!!!
Step 5: The Tipping Point - Where it starts to go downhill

As it states, things start to go wrong... they start to become clingy.... they start to annoy you... they start to do stuff you don't like...... like the time the girl started to control me... she was jealous... and then!!
Step 6: Purgatory - The culmination of annoyances

They just keep on piling up..... she just kept on and on.... until!
Step 7: Confrontation - Ending the relationship

This is the time to end it! i finally had enough of her and said to her that its over.... and then!!
Step 8: Fallout - The unavoidable backlash

Things might go a bit weird for a while... especially if they are your workmates.... if they are just friends, they might not treat you the same for a while... and it is gonna stay weird.... whenever i saw her it would just be like oil and water.... but... 
Step 9: Coexistence - Letting go and moving on

After a while.... it would be okay..... you will start to accept things between each other... and life moves on ^_^

The last episode for house in season 5, a patient who has someone else "living" in him, as his right brain is separated from his left. so part of his body is not under his control!! now imagine for a second... we have this other 'you' living inside you... scary isnt it? but at the same time, it is interesting to find out what this other 'you' is thinking about!

here's a song that i've been hearing and seeing on tv and finally downloaded it!!

Don't Trust Me

By

3 OH! 3

Black dress, with the tights underneath

I got the breath of the last cigarette on my teeth 

And she’s and actress (actress), 

But she aint got no need 

She’s got money from her parents and a trust fund back east 

T-t-t-tongues, always pressed to your cheeks 

While my tongue is on the inside of some other girls teeth

T-tell your boyfriend (boyfriend) if he said he’s got beef 

That I’m a vegetarian, and I aint fuckin scared of him! 

She wants to touch me woah 

She wants to love me woah

She’ll never leave me woah, woah oh oh 

Don’t trust a hoe

Never trust a hoe

Won’t trust a hoe, won’t trust me 

She wants to touch me, woah

She wants to love me woah

She’ll never leave me woah, woah oh oh 

Don’t trust a hoe

Never trust a hoe

Won’t trust a hoe, won’t trust me! 

Ex's, on the back of your hands 

Wash them in the bathroom, to drink like the bands 

And the set list, (set list)

You stole off the stage

Has red and purple lipstick all over the page 

B-b-b-bruises cover your arms 

Shaking in the fingers with the bottle in your palm 

And the best is (best is)

No one knows who you are 

Just another girl

Alone at the bar

She wants to touch me woah

She wants to love me woah

She’ll never leave me woah, woah oh oh

Don’t trust a hoe

Never trust a hoe

Won’t trust a hoe, won’t trust me

She wants to touch me woah

She wants to love me woah

She’ll never leave me woah, woah oh oh

Don’t trust a hoe

Never trust a hoe

Won’t trust a hoe, won’t trust me! 

Shush girl

Shut your lips

Do the Helen Keller and talk with your hips

I said shush girl

Shut your lips

Do the Helen Keller and talk with your hips 

I said shush girl

Shut your lips

Do the Helen Keller and talk with your hips!

(Woah, woah, woah-oh-oh)

(Woah, woah, woah-oh-oh)

She wants to touch me woah

She wants to love me woah

She’ll never leave me woah, woah oh oh 

Don’t trust a hoe

Never trust a hoe

Won’t trust a hoe, won’t trust me

She wants to touch me woah 

She wants to love me woah 

She’ll never leave me woah, woah oh oh

Don’t trust a hoe 

Never trust a hoe 

Won’t trust a hoe, won’t trust me 

Well peeps, thats it for now!!! Ciao!! ^_^

12th June 2009 (Love is joy and pain together)

Joy, a sudden burst of energy, a feeling of elation, a feeling of empowerment, a feeling of hope. a feeling where you feel that it is truly the best day of your life, the feeling that makes you want to soar, or eat a very large meal, the feeling that you ahve when you are together with your most precious friends, the feeling you have when you are with your loved one, the feeling that makes you wake up in the morning just to see the sky. a moment in time where you feel that you are in perfect bliss, the feeling that you ahve when you are at peace, the feeling that you have when you are at one with yourself.

Pain, a sudden stab in your heart, the heaviness of your head and chest after a fight, the pent up emotions and feelings that you bottle up, the feeling that the wind has been taken out of you, the feeling after a slap in the face, the feeling of betrayal, the feeling of your heart being ripped to shred, the feeling of torment from the sight of something you could not believe. the feeling that you get when your assumptions are crushed, the feeling when your expectations are thrown out the window, the feeling that you get when the person you love is no longer by your side, the feeling of suffocation, the feeling you get when all hope is lost, the feeling you get when you let go of something or someone, your head spinning because you could not understand something.

Love........ need i say more? look into yourself and see, because that is where you are, you are here, in this moment, no where else.

ciao

11th June 2009 (Your Call)

Your Call by Secondhand Serenade

Waiting for your

call, I'm sick

call, I'm angry

call, I'm desperate for your voice.

I'm listening to the song we used to sing

in the car.

you remember, butterfly, early summer?

It's playing on repeat...Just like when we would meet.

'Cause I was born to tell you I love you,

and I am torn to do what I have to,

to make you mine, Stay with me tonight.

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh.

I am feeling so ambitious; you and me, flesh to flesh.

Because every breath that you will take when you are sitting next to me

will bring life into my deepest hopes.

What's your fantasy?

What's your, what's your, what's your, what's your...

'Cause I was born to tell you I love you,

and I am torn to do what I have to,

'Cause I was born to tell you I love you,

and I am torn to do what I have to,

to make you mine.Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone,

and this solitary moment

makes me want to come back home.

( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have.)

'Cause I was born to tell you I love you,
and I am torn to do what I have to,
'Cause I was born to tell you I love you,
and I am torn to do what I have to,
to make you mine.Stay with me tonight

12th March 2009 (Kinda Girl For Me, This Is The Girl)

heloo peeps!!! its been a while since ive written anything. iv been doing a lot of journalling lately, and that took me away from the keyboard for a while :P iv been thinking a lot about life and relationships as well. iv been thru quite a few relationships, some good some bad, some iv even taken for granted for. at this point in time, i will send out my intention to the universe..... i will find someone that will share this life with me... walk this journey with me.... i believe in myself... believe in others.... i believe that everything happening for a reason....

and so i have two songs that have caught my attention. the first is Kinda Girl For Me and the second is This Is The Girl, both sung by Craig David. as usual, here are the lyrics!!!

Kinda Girl For Me 

By Craig David

[Intro]

You are everything

You are everything

All of this time

That you been waiting

Seems like now you got what you want (ohh)

You got me stuck on the realness (realness, realness)

Give all your love all your realness

[Verse 1]

She's that kinda girl

Pretty 'bout 5"6', small hips, with them cinnamon curls

Yes a straight bravado girl

Money for new whips, makin' trips all around the world

Yes she's the kinda girl, always thinkin' on her feet

The type of girl that one day you'd like to meet

Guess I found her, wanna be around her

Really ain't that hard for me to see (yeah)

[Chorus]

The truth is see I got it bad

But there ain't nothing wrong with that

Found a girl that makes me wanna go

Places I ain't never been before

She's so sick like a dope melody sittin' nicely on top of the beat

'Cos she's a rider not a fighter, kinda girl for me (yeah)

All of this time, that you been waiting

Seems like now you got what you want

You got me stuck on the realness (the realness, realness) (ohh)

You got me stuck on the realness

[Verse 2]

I can't really believe, it's like I caught a fever, this feelin' takin' over me

Maybe it's L O V E, but for sure yes you're a keeper, savin' all your, for me

She got that ability turn a spark into a flame

Like a beautiful picture in a frame

She's on fire, just got to admire, the way she be puttin' it down on me (yeah)

[Chorus]

The truth is see I got it bad

But there ain't nothing wrong with that

Found a girl that makes me wanna go

Places I ain't never been before

She's so sick like a dope melody sittin' nicely on top of the beat

'Cos she's a rider not a fighter, kinda girl for me (yeah)

[Bridge]

Past relationships I'd lose

I guess I never tried to see things through

That's how many other girls always on my mind

Stop actin' a fool, and I've got so much to prove

'Cos now I found the right girl for me

[Chorus]

The truth is see I got it bad (I got it bad baby)

But there ain't nothing wrong with that (ohh)

Found a girl that makes me wanna go (wanna go)

Places I ain't never been before (never been before no)

She's so sick like a dope melody sittin' nicely on top of the beat (oh yeah)

'Cos she's a rider not a fighter, kinda girl for me (ooh baby) whoaaa whoa yeah, oh baby

The truth is see I got it bad (I got it bad baby)

But there ain't nothing wrong with that (yeah)

Found a girl that make me wanna go(wanna go)

Places I ain't never been before (never been before no)

She's so sick like a dope melody sittin' nicely on top of the beat (oh yeah)

'Cos she's a rider not a fighter, kinda girl for me (yeah) (oh no)

[Outro]

All of this time, that you been waiting

Seems like now you got what you want

You got me stuck on the realness (realness, realness)

You got me stuck on the realness

Give all your love all your realness

This The Girl

By

Craig David

I’m comfortable, it been way more than a month or two

It’s deeper than that I roll with you

So no other chick can’t come close to you

And deep down I know the truth notice you don’t like if I come with you

But chicks wanna hug me in front of you

But I don’t mean to be rude

I won’t find me another one quite like you

I know that we become so close

And I know I’m mostly on tour with girls backstage after the encore

But I’m down for you, look out for you

Try my best to be around for you

And if your still down then I want you to know

That you’re the one I want when I’m gone

Chorus

This is the girl that I want

This is the girl that’s gone make me fall in love

Girl I would ride with you

Give up my life for you

Baby cos girl I changed

And this is the girl that I want

Uh oh oh

Look I’ve been In a club many a time

Been a play a two girls at a time

Been a very bad boy like shine too blind to see what you were doing

I was involved in close, hiding with a silent ring tone

Like Jude Law in Closer

Relationship roller coaster

My life, my real life co-star

With no dialogged we couldn’t go far

But I’ll try and stop coz so far

But That Won’t Last

I move so fast

Spin round the track like Go-Karts

Over and over and over

To a slow … I’m so lost

Cos what I couldn’t be, you wanted me to be

When I couldn’t breathe I wanted you to leave

What you couldn’t see

Was me in the club with she

Looking like my wife to be

But finally

I’ve grown up since then

And your eyes opened up since then

And I’ve changed so let’s keep it moving

Chorus

This is the girl that I want

This is the girl that’s gone make me fall in love

Girl I would ride with you

Give up my life for you

Baby cos girl I changed

And this is the girl that I want

This is the girl that I want

Forget bout all them other girls before

Wanna get involved with you

And the other girls ain’t the same

That play the game

This is the girl that I want

Uh oh oh

On the canopy

My stamina be enough for Angelina Jolie

Actually I had to become a man to be the man you see

And I know your fantasy

A baby and a family with me

I know how it sounds but believe me

And if I don’t know how to be Teach me

i was contemplating about my feelings for someone for a while... at that moment, we were connected, in separable.... we would cuddle up.... our skins touching... our energies flowing thru each other..... i cant deny those feelings... i am drawn to her.... she allows me to be myself as i allow her to be herself.... we accept each other as who we are.... we allow each other to be the best we can be... and thats what matters.... ^_^ i hope to see her soon bcoz i miss her dearly

well peeps, i suppose thats it for now!!

adios!!!

16th December 2008 (2008 Reflections)

hello peeps!!! i decided to write up reflections to wrap up my 2008. i already put it up in my facebook so im just putting it here to complete the circle hehehe. here it is!!!


2008 - Reflections

Right now, i'm having the time of my life!! Good and bad things have happened, but that's what makes life a blast!!! 2008, you made me laugh, you made me cry, you made me happy, you made me sad. Looking back at this year and previous years, it makes me wonder, where has the time gone to? time really is a continuos force, never stopping for anyone. if asked would i change the past? i wouldnt :) i am glad that the choices i made in the past has placed me where i am right now. The friends i have gained and lost, the people i have met and not met, the things i have done and not done, if it wasnt for these, i would be somewhere else in life.


the funny thing about life is, you are given choices everyday, whether you realize it or not. the choice of what clothes to wear, what words you can speak, what you will write. i admit that some of the choices i have made are not the best of choices, and i do regret making those choices. however, the past is the past, accept it, learn from it. life is too wonderful to be hung up ur past mistakes. besides, mistakes are what makes us human. we learn a lot more from mistakes than we realize. it is hard to accept but time will heal it, with help from our friends :) i am blessed to have such wonderful friends in my life, from all shades and places of this planet we call earth, it is amazing to see how much we have in common.


2008 has imparted many lesson with me, some were enlightening, others were sad realizations. Believe that every choice you make counts, the intentions set, the expectations removed, the energy that was present when the decision was made, it will affect you in the future. Be aware of yourself and others, the energy they emit, the energy you emit, your actions, the actions of others. Be aware of the thoughts we have, why we are having these thoughts and what caused them. The first step to understanding others is by understanding yourself, the deeper you go into yourself, the more insightful you become. Love is in essence unconditional, although we humans have different perceptions regarding love, truth of the matter is, love is not monetary, it is not in the form of material possessions. True love is the act of choosing to give and receive love, without expecting enything in return, without judging who should receive love, without considering their physical outlook. Along this journey called life, we have lost parts of ourselves, taken away by others, You are only as confident, happy and as loving as you think you are. If you feel you are not happy or unsure that you are happy, chances are you aren't. Think positively about yourself, have confidence, and you will achieve many things you never dreamed possible. Something may not be as clear the first time around, as it only involves the physical aspect of yourself. Look at it a second time, you will see something else, a different perspective.


As i've mentioned earlier, the past is what got us into the position we are now but it does not dictate who we are. What kind of person we were in the past is not the kind of person we are now. Our past does not define who we are. I've come to realize my attitude, actions, phrasing and my energy in the past, and i didn't like what i saw. At first i denied it, "i'm not that kind of person!" or "i'm this kind of person!". After all that self-denial blew over, i came to see, i WAS that person. However, i now have a choice. I can choose to be that person again, or be someone who isn't like that, someone who is nicer, kind, caring, aware, loving. It took time, courage and postive energy from friends to make it work for me and for that i am grateful to them :D


Today is a gift, that is why it is called the present. These words didn't hold much meaning for me in the past, but now i realize how true these words are. "Where are we? Right here. Who am i? This moment.". Very few people know the significance of the present. We only have this moment, the present, to choose, to take action. We cannot change the past, the future is still unknown. Being in the moment, the present, is being aware, the energy you emit, the energy around you, your thoughts. The only thing we truly OWN this world is the energy we emit, the actions we do, the words we say. We do not own our car, our spouses, our children, our bodies. It is on loan to us, as we are the caretakers. The choice to nuture or destroy is in our hands. Our actions, energy, words will live on in other people, for many years to come. Make a choice. Do we pass on our negative thoughts, actions, energy or do we pass on our positive thoughts, actions, energy? A small act of kindness, with the right intention and energy, can have an impact in the world in ways you could never imagine.


Belief, hope, faith, rediscover the meaning of these words in your own self. Being present does not mean to disregard the future. When you make decisions now, have the belief, the faith and the hope that the decision you make now, will guide you to a better future.


Choices, decisions, we make them everyday, without thinking how it would affect us, how it would affect other people and how it would affect our life. Ask yourself before making a decision, "what am i doing this for?". Are you making the decision to hurt someone? to make them happy?. then ponder this, "why am i doing this?". Did they hurt you? do you want to return a favour?. Be aware of the energy that is in you when making the decision because this energy will be passed. Positive energy will bring about more positive energy and likewise for negative.


Life is a wonderful journey, and as 2008 looms to a close, i would like to bid it farewell. I have learned, met, experienced, seen, many wonderful things, people, places. New opportunities and challenges await all of us in 2009, full of wonderous mysteries, about ourselves, about other people, and about our destiny.


With Love, Ash :)

7th December 2008 (Ikenai Taiyou, Tuo Diao and She Could Be You)

hello peeps!!!!! Today is the best day of our lives!!!! this sentence has been waking me up for the past few weeks now and its a welcome greeting from ppl!!!! :D

first off i'm gonna list down songs that i have been listening to. and here are the lyrics!!!

Ikenai Taiyou

by

Orange Range

Ikenai taiyou Na Na

Chotto de ii kara misete kurenai ka

Omae no sekushii feromon de ore mero mero

Ah furechaisou demo ikenai no!

Jojo ni kou naru kodou tomerarenai wa

Kawasu kotoba no kioku tooku kuchimoto no ugoki ni yureugoku

Nureta kami wo nadeta soshite Ah

ABC tsuzukanai sonna n ja dame ja nai

Datte kokoro no oku wa chigau n ja nai?

Ore no seishun sonna mon ja nai atsuku oku de hatetai yo

Kitto kimi ja nakya ya da yo ore wa ikenai taiyou Na Na

"akai ito" nante esora goto demo shita gokoro de sae shinjitai no

Ore wa tadashii kimi mo tadashii tonikaku mou sayuu sarenai ze

Damashi damasare mune uzuku heta na shibai ga yori moriageru yoru

Iki ga mimi ni fureta futari Ah

ABC tsuzukanai sonna n ja dame ja nai

Datte kokoro no oku wa chigau n ja nai?

Atashi no seishun sonna mon ja nai atsuku oku de hatetai yo

Kitto kimi ja nakya ya da yo atashi ikenai taiyou

Kawasu kotoba no kioku tooku kuchimoto no ugoki ni yureugoku

Nureta kami wo nadeta soshite Ah

ABC tsuzukanai sonna n ja dame ja nai

Datte kokoro no oku wa chigau n ja nai?

Ore no seishun sonna mon ja nai atsuku oku de hatetai yo

Kitto kimi ja nakya ya da yo ore wa ikenai taiyou

Karamiau ito wa kimi to ore wo musubu akai ito

Na Na

The Bad Sun (Ikenai Taiyou - English translation)

by

Orange Range

The bad sun, na na

Just for a second, won't you show me?

I'm falling down from your sexy pheromones

Ah, it looks like I'm going to touch you, but I can't!

Little by little, my pulse gets faster, I can't be stopped

Memories of the words that we exchanged are far off, trembling with the movement of my mouth

I stroked your wet hair, and ah

Not continuing on from ABC, you can't do that

But aren't things different inside of your heart?

My youth, there's no such thing; I want to finish it off passionately, inside of me

I definitely don't want to be without you, I'm the bad sun, na na

A "red thread" is a pipe dream, but I want to believe in my motives

I'm right, you're right too; but anyway, I won't be controlled anymore

Deceiving and being deceived, my heart aches; a terrible drama brings the night to a climax

Our breaths meet each other's ears, ah

Not continuing on from ABC, you can't do that

But aren't things different inside of your heart?

My youth, there's no such thing; I want to finish it off passionately, inside of me

I definitely don't want to be without you, I'm the bad sun

Memories of the words that we exchanged are far off, trembling with the movement of my mouth

I stroked your wet hair, and ah

Not continuing on from ABC, you can't do that

But aren't things different inside of your heart?

My youth, there's no such thing; I want to finish it off passionately, inside of me

I definitely don't want to be without you, I'm the bad sun

Our threads are entangled, a red thread binds you and I together

Na na

Tuo Diao

by

Alex To

YEAH TWO THOUSAND FOUR

SUMMER TIME BABY

HIT IT UP YO

ONE TWO ONE TWO THREE FOUR

wai tao tuo diao tuo diao wai tao tuo diao

shang yi tuo diao tuo diao shang yi tuo diao

mian ju tuo diao tuo diao gui mao tuo diao tuo diao

tong tong tuo diao tuo diao

tuo tuo tuo tuo

HEY YO chuan shang bao hu se hai zi yi wei you kan tou

xiang yao you dian gao tou zen me lao shi jue de hen ben zhong

zai ye kan bu xia qu bie guai ren kou tai duo na shi xin shi chong chong

kong qi wu zhuo you ren tai guo yong zhong

liao liao ba jiu shi xiang de tai duo you ka zhu tou

cha dian yao ben xing liu lu jiu bu yao ying guo tou

qi qing liu yu ren yi dao de shui bu shi tian sheng jiu you

YO BABY YEAH BABY

quan tuo diao huan yi tao jiu di kai qiao

wo men chuan le tai duo fan nao re dao zi ji shou bu liao

pi qi zong hui mo ming qi miao mo yan you sha xiao

ni xin ku wo xin ku he bi na me ku

YEAH BABY YEAH BABY

gui ju tai duo yi qi tuo diao you gao tou yi qi biao

hun shen shang bu qing shuang chang liang kuai huo zhe duo mei hao

ni zhi dao ni xiang yao na yang cai qiao

THIS AIN'T ABOUT SEX

UH-UH IT'S ABOUT LOVE

AND IF YOU CAN FEEL IT

LET ME HEAR YOU SAY

NA NA NA NA NA

NA NA NA

NA NA NA

NA NA NA NA NA

tong tong tuo diao

NA NA NA NA NA

NA NA NA

NA NA NA

NA NA NA NA NA

wai tao tuo diao tuo diao wai tao tuo diao

shang yi tuo diao tuo diao shang yi tuo diao

mian ju tuo diao tuo diao gui mao tuo diao tuo diao

tong tong tuo diao tuo diao

tuo tuo tuo tuo

you chong dong mei xing dong na jiu shen me dou bao gao

mei wen ti gan cui wo men lai fen gong he zuo

shui yao dian na ba huo shui yao huo shang jia you

chang zi re le shui dou bu yao duo gan cui jia xi zhen zuo

tiao jin lai jiao huo gei ni ji hui fang zong

bai tuo da jia bu yao bai zai mei shi chuan tai duo

yi er san tuo de jin guang duan lian shen ti you tu po

YO BABY, I WANT YOU, I NEED YOU

GIRL LET'S GO

wo men chuan le tai duo fan nao re dao zi ji shou bu liao

pi qi zong hui mo ming qi miao mo yan you sha xiao

ni xin ku wo xin ku he bi na me ku

YEAH BABY YEAH BABY

gui ju tai duo yi qi tuo diao you gao tou yi qi biao

hun shen shang bu qing shuang chang liang kuai huo zhe duo mei hao

ni zhi dao ni xiang yao na yang cai qiao

HA HA HA HA

I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU YEAH

BUT I'M FEELING GOOD

AND IF YOU CAN FEEL IT TOO

JUST SHOW ME WHAT YOU GOT

NA NA NA NA NA

NA NA NA

NA NA NA

NA NA NA NA NA

tong tong tuo diao

NA NA NA NA NA

NA NA NA

NA NA NA

NA NA NA NA NA

wai tao tuo diao tuo diao wai tao tuo diao

shang yi tuo diao tuo diao shang yi tuo diao

mian ju tuo diao tuo diao gui mao tuo diao tuo diao

tong tong tuo diao tuo diao

tuo tuo tuo tuo

She Could Be You

by

Shawn Hlookoff

I'm haunted by this photograph

Don't know why

Every time I look, I get shivers down my spine

You're such a beautiful face

I know those eyes

They take me back in time

She could be you

I wouldn't even know

She could be you

But that was long ago

She could be you

I wish that I could tell you

What you don't know

I dream about that day

But it's impossible

In another world,

I'll be yours tonight

But I can't break free from this life

She could be you

I wouldn't even know

She could be you

But that was long ago

She could be you

I see it all the time

I know it's true

A picture doesn't lie

She could be you

I wouldn't even know

She could be you

But that was long ago

She could be you

She could be you

She could be you

thats all for now peeps. will update more soon!!!

Adios!!!