16th December 2008 (2008 Reflections)

hello peeps!!! i decided to write up reflections to wrap up my 2008. i already put it up in my facebook so im just putting it here to complete the circle hehehe. here it is!!!


2008 - Reflections

Right now, i'm having the time of my life!! Good and bad things have happened, but that's what makes life a blast!!! 2008, you made me laugh, you made me cry, you made me happy, you made me sad. Looking back at this year and previous years, it makes me wonder, where has the time gone to? time really is a continuos force, never stopping for anyone. if asked would i change the past? i wouldnt :) i am glad that the choices i made in the past has placed me where i am right now. The friends i have gained and lost, the people i have met and not met, the things i have done and not done, if it wasnt for these, i would be somewhere else in life.


the funny thing about life is, you are given choices everyday, whether you realize it or not. the choice of what clothes to wear, what words you can speak, what you will write. i admit that some of the choices i have made are not the best of choices, and i do regret making those choices. however, the past is the past, accept it, learn from it. life is too wonderful to be hung up ur past mistakes. besides, mistakes are what makes us human. we learn a lot more from mistakes than we realize. it is hard to accept but time will heal it, with help from our friends :) i am blessed to have such wonderful friends in my life, from all shades and places of this planet we call earth, it is amazing to see how much we have in common.


2008 has imparted many lesson with me, some were enlightening, others were sad realizations. Believe that every choice you make counts, the intentions set, the expectations removed, the energy that was present when the decision was made, it will affect you in the future. Be aware of yourself and others, the energy they emit, the energy you emit, your actions, the actions of others. Be aware of the thoughts we have, why we are having these thoughts and what caused them. The first step to understanding others is by understanding yourself, the deeper you go into yourself, the more insightful you become. Love is in essence unconditional, although we humans have different perceptions regarding love, truth of the matter is, love is not monetary, it is not in the form of material possessions. True love is the act of choosing to give and receive love, without expecting enything in return, without judging who should receive love, without considering their physical outlook. Along this journey called life, we have lost parts of ourselves, taken away by others, You are only as confident, happy and as loving as you think you are. If you feel you are not happy or unsure that you are happy, chances are you aren't. Think positively about yourself, have confidence, and you will achieve many things you never dreamed possible. Something may not be as clear the first time around, as it only involves the physical aspect of yourself. Look at it a second time, you will see something else, a different perspective.


As i've mentioned earlier, the past is what got us into the position we are now but it does not dictate who we are. What kind of person we were in the past is not the kind of person we are now. Our past does not define who we are. I've come to realize my attitude, actions, phrasing and my energy in the past, and i didn't like what i saw. At first i denied it, "i'm not that kind of person!" or "i'm this kind of person!". After all that self-denial blew over, i came to see, i WAS that person. However, i now have a choice. I can choose to be that person again, or be someone who isn't like that, someone who is nicer, kind, caring, aware, loving. It took time, courage and postive energy from friends to make it work for me and for that i am grateful to them :D


Today is a gift, that is why it is called the present. These words didn't hold much meaning for me in the past, but now i realize how true these words are. "Where are we? Right here. Who am i? This moment.". Very few people know the significance of the present. We only have this moment, the present, to choose, to take action. We cannot change the past, the future is still unknown. Being in the moment, the present, is being aware, the energy you emit, the energy around you, your thoughts. The only thing we truly OWN this world is the energy we emit, the actions we do, the words we say. We do not own our car, our spouses, our children, our bodies. It is on loan to us, as we are the caretakers. The choice to nuture or destroy is in our hands. Our actions, energy, words will live on in other people, for many years to come. Make a choice. Do we pass on our negative thoughts, actions, energy or do we pass on our positive thoughts, actions, energy? A small act of kindness, with the right intention and energy, can have an impact in the world in ways you could never imagine.


Belief, hope, faith, rediscover the meaning of these words in your own self. Being present does not mean to disregard the future. When you make decisions now, have the belief, the faith and the hope that the decision you make now, will guide you to a better future.


Choices, decisions, we make them everyday, without thinking how it would affect us, how it would affect other people and how it would affect our life. Ask yourself before making a decision, "what am i doing this for?". Are you making the decision to hurt someone? to make them happy?. then ponder this, "why am i doing this?". Did they hurt you? do you want to return a favour?. Be aware of the energy that is in you when making the decision because this energy will be passed. Positive energy will bring about more positive energy and likewise for negative.


Life is a wonderful journey, and as 2008 looms to a close, i would like to bid it farewell. I have learned, met, experienced, seen, many wonderful things, people, places. New opportunities and challenges await all of us in 2009, full of wonderous mysteries, about ourselves, about other people, and about our destiny.


With Love, Ash :)