20th September 2006 (Evolution Part II - Lonely in Gorgeous~~)

well well well... part II of the blog..... sorry it took too long... hahaha! i discovered a new thing i like.... its an anime on tv right now.. paradise kiss... my taste in anime is very... how can i out it.... peculiar... very few animes catch my attention.. and this one has gotten me hooked... it was the theme song that got me interested... lonely in gorgeous by Tommy February6..... some people might think the anime strange but it has some thing that caught my attention... i still dont know what it is..... here are the lyrics of the song...

Lonely in Gorgeous - Tommy February6

Gozen reiji, tobidashita

Tobira wo ketobashite

Garasu no kutsu ga warete

Doresu mo yabureta

Nee akirete iru n' deshou?

Oikaketemo konai

Namida ga afurete

Mou hashirenai wa...

Jerashii kamo... se-tsu-na-i...!!

"Lonely in Gorgeous" Yeah...

Party night...I'm Breaking my heart

Imasugu mitsukete dakishimete hoshii

Heddoraito ga hikaru

...where are you Bad boy?

Ai no Sukaafu de namida wo fuite

Nani mo mienai

Hoshikuzu wo kakiatsume

Anata ni butsuketai

Naze kamau no?

Jibun shika ai senai kuse ni...

Shitsuren kamo... maji na no...?!

"Lonely in Gorgeous" Yeah...

Party time...umaranai

Anata ga inai to karappo na sekai

Yume no tsudzuki ga mitai

"I miss you Bad boy"

Kirameki no naka ni tojikomenaide

Kowarete shimau wa

"Lonely in Gorgeous"

I'm Breaking my heart

Where are you Bad boy?

"Lonely in Party night"

"Lonely in Gorgeous"

I'm Breaking my heart

I miss you Bad boy

"Lonely in Party time"

"Lonely in Gorgeous" Yeah...

Party night...waraenai

Nani mo iranai tada soba ni ite

"Lonely in Gorgeous" Yeah...

Party night...

I'm Breaking my heart

Anata ga nokoshita

Kirameki no hako no naka de

Kodoku wo daite ugokenai

Nani mo iranai no tada soba ni ite

Hizamazuite watashi wo mite

Ai wo chikatte

English translation:

At midnight, I rushed out

I kicked the door,

My glass slipper broke,

and I also tore my dress

Hey, it's disgusting, isn't it?

Even if I chase you, you won't come

Tears fill up my eyes

and I can't run anymore

Maybe it's jealousy... I'm s-a-d...!!

"Lonely in Gorgeous" Yeah...

Party night...I'm Breaking my heart

I want you to find me and hold me now

My headlights are shining

...where are you Bad boy?

I wipe away my tears with the scarf of love

and I can't see anything

I want to gather up the stardust

and throw them at you

Why should I care?

You can't love anyone but yourself...

Maybe it's heartbreak... For real...?!

"Lonely in Gorgeous" Yeah...

Party time...I won't bury it

When you're not here, it's an empty world

I want to see the continuation of the dream

"I miss you Bad boy"

I won't be locked up in the glitter,

I'll break it down

"Lonely in Gorgeous"

I'm Breaking my heart

Where are you Bad boy?

"Lonely in Party night"

"Lonely in Gorgeous"

I'm Breaking my heart

I miss you Bad boy

"Lonely in Party time"

"Lonely in Gorgeous" Yeah...

Party night...I can't laugh

I don't need anything, just stay by my side

"Lonely in Gorgeous" Yeah...

Party night...

I'm Breaking my heart

In the sparkling box

You left behind,

I held my loneliness and can't move

I don't need anything, just stay by my side

Get down on your knees, look at me,

and swear you love me.

Tommy is actually a girl.. very cute i must say for a girl who styles herself as a nerd.... hahaha that sounds so perverted....

anyway, my life has definitely changed quite a bit over the past few weeks... and i kno there are more changes to come soon... talked to a friend of mine a couple of days ago on MSN... he said to me "you better get yourself a girl quick man".... to most people that might sound like peer pressure but its not... he knows what im goin thru.... amidst all the work and projects, i've sort of forgotten about girls.... the loneliness is still there but with me being preoccupied with other things, its been set aside... but i kno that once i have free time, the loneliness will start to kick in..... sigh.... at the moment, all i can do is keep my eyes open.... with the waythings are going now, i dont know what is in store for me in the future... so well just wait and see...

my friend and i began to talk about the projects i'm doing and i just found out that i can actually help his dad out.... at this moment in time, i'm still in negotiations but truth be told i know its a done deal... i have to keep my chin up, back straight and move forward..... take nomore bullshit or crap from any posers.... a lot of people are counting on me.... cant let anything take my focus away... i have to be..... fearless.....

Jay Chou
Huo Yuan Chia(Fearless)

he ming you ji hui he

lei tai deng zhe
sheng si zhuang
ying liao shen me

leng xiao zhe
tian xia shui de
di yi you ru he
zhi gan ge
wo bei shang wu de

wo de
quan jiao liao de
que nai he
tu zeng xu ming yi ge
jiang hu nan ce
shui shi qiang zhe
shui zheng yi tong wu lin de zi ge

xiao cheng li sui yue liu guo qu
qing che de yong qi
xi di guo de hui yi
wo ji de ni
jiao ao de huo xia qu

huo huo huo huo
huo huo huo huo
huo jia quan de tao lu zhao shi ling huo

wo wo wo wo
wo wo wo wo

huo zhe sheng ming jiu gai wan zheng du guo

wo wo wo wo
wo wo wo wo

guo cuo ruan ruo cong lai bu shu yu wo

huo huo huo huo
huo huo huo huo

wo men jing wu chu shou wu ren neng duo

.................................................................................................................... i have no more stuff to say now......... well ppl... thats the end of part II.... to be continued.....

16th September 2006(Evolution)

hello peeps..... i dunno why i'm writing right now..... all my other posts were written for a reason.... i couldnt even decide wat title to put on this one... so i just put a name of a song by ayumi hamasaki...

i dont know what i'm feeling right now.... shud i continue writing this? maybe.... there's something that i cant put my finger on thats bugging me..... and i've been contemplating this for quite a while... remember me saying about da void in my soul?? right now i'm not sure wat it wants right now.... everyday passes, with stuff to do but ........ i wonder sometimes....... is this wat i want? am i fulfilling my purpose or someone else's purpose? i've got my friends.... i've got my money... i've got material things.... i've got dreams.... but in the end..... is that all? there's got to be more to life than just living and then dying..... i kno i might sound like i'm talking nonsense but.... thats wat i feel right now.... to tell u da truth..... i want to die..... haha dont worry! i'm not suicidal but i wonder about wat happens after you die.... is there really something waiting for me there? there's talk of heaven and hell... there's talk of reincarnation... maybe wat i'm feeling right now is one of those phases that people go thru at least once in their life... the feeling of unfulfillment.... the disatisfaction of just merely living..... had a talk a few days ago with my friend about life in general.... what he said got me thinking about my life, what i've done and my plans.... he said life is full of uncertainty.... all u can do is make the most of it and take in the good.... u cant judge people from just one point of view... people are unpredictable... people can hurt others... people can make others happy.... sigh..... at this moment in time, i believe in god..... i really do... this is the only certain thing i know.... people may mock or be surprised at the changes they see... its understandable... people judge u from your past actions... they dont know what i'm going thru right now... only 2 know... my friend and god..... he was quite surprised to hear it..... he knows wat i must do.... wat i can do is evolve.... hah! i'm taking the title into account now... yes... evolution.... i need to become more than just human... not a god but just more.... i want to break free from my constraints that i have right now..... i still yet to achieve freedom in my perspective... hah, i might sound like a blasphemer.... talking about beeing something more than wat god has created himself.... but in the book of god it also says that god is all giving to his servants.... so maybe it is possible.........


well i gtg.... got to do stufff.... part 1 complete... still more to do.... see ya for now...

10th September 2006 (Play that funky music white boy!!)

yes you read the title right... found an old cd amongst some of my newer cd collections... "songs from ping's laptop" was engraved in white-out on the top of da cd... hehe... so being curious as ever, i popped da cd in and lo and behold, this song gets played!!! i forgot how fun this song was!! me and ajib actually made a theme song for lei with this song!!

Play that funky music

Yeah hey
Hey

Once there was a boogie singer
Playing in a rock and roll band
I never had no problems, yeah
burnin'out the one night stands
And everything around me
Got to start to feeling so low
And I decied quickly, yes is did
To disco down and check out this show

Yeah there was dancing
And singing
And moving to the grooving
And just when it hit me
Somebody turned around
And shouted

Play that funky music white boy
Play that funky music right
Play that funky music white boy
Lay down the boogie and play that funky music til you die
Til you die?
(Yeah)
Oh til you die

I tried to understand this
I thought that they where out of their minds
How could I be so foolish, how could I
To not see I was the one behind
So still I kept on fighting
Loosing every step of the way
(And what you do?)
I said I must go back there, got to go back
And check to see if things still the same

Yeah there were dancing
And singing
And moving to the grooving
And just when it hit me
Somebody turned around
And shouted

Play that funky music white boy
Play that funky music right
Play that funky music white boy
Lay down the boogie and wear that funky music til you die
Til you die?
(Yeah)
Oh til you die

Hey, wait a minute
Now first it wasn’t easy
Changing rock and roll and minds
And things where getting shaky
I thought I had to leave it behind
Now its so much better, it’s so much better
I’m funkying out in every way
But I’ll never lose that feeling, no I won’t
On how I learned my lesson that day

Yeah there were dancing
And singing
And moving to the grooving
And just when it hit me
Somebody turned around
And shouted

Play that funky music white boy
Play that funky music right
Play that funky music white boy
Lay down the boogie and play that funky music til you die
Til you die?
(Yeah)
Oh til you die

Thay shouted
Play that funky music
Play that funky music
Play that funky music
Play that funky music

Play that funky music white boy
Play that funky music right
Play that funky music white boy
Play that funky music right
Play that funky music white boy


hahahahaha!!!! this song still sounds good!!! played this song over and over in da car as loud as i could!! tapping my fingers, movin to the beat and singing along... i got weird looks from the people in the other cars but who cares!! and they were dancin, and singing, and movin to the grooving, and just when it hit me, somebody turned around and shouted, play that funky music white boy!~~~~~~ huahahahahahaha!!!!!

dat was the first time in weeks i was actually enjoying a song...... most of the songs that i listen to r like fast and loud... its kinda nice to go old school once in a while.... hehehe!!! i'll be playin this song for a good while in my car....

a good few hours ago, i had a chat with a very old friend of mine... turns out he's been readin my blogs (yay!) and checkin up on the stuff happenin back here... apparently, some of my blogs r so mixed up that he got some of the facts of my stories wrong... for the rest of you unknown readers out there, please leave comments if you find my blogs hard to follow.... i luvveeeeeee comments.... hahaha!!! makes me feel that i'm actually contributing something by writing these posts...

for this post i'm gonna steer away from my love life and write about other stuff thats been goin on... frankly i'm kinda sick and tired of writing about it, it doesnt make me feel any better.... so might as well just forget bout it for now... anyway~~~~

i have been officially appointed as....*drum roll* president of the bowling club!!!! unfortunately, due to the upcoming festivities and ramadhan, i shall have to postpone any activities till next semester... but i will hold a get together for new and old AJKS at bowling utama this sem... just need to figure out when.. lol!

i'm sooo glad i decided to stick around in brunei... even tho i'm gonna miss my classmates who r going off to UK in a few days, the new friends i made will somehow compensate for them.... class has been somehow extremely fun!! basically, for the first time in uni ever, i am liking wat i'm learning!!! financial management, business research methods, MIT, programming and business systems analysis!! i get to go back to wat i loved to do as a kid, learning about business and workin on computers!! programming class was a breeze!! VB is soooo easy nowadays... last time i did VB was when i was 17 and it was using the old software... now its damn easy... hahaha!!! BSA isnt too hard too, since most of the stuff in da course i've learned while i was in JIS!!! business reasearch methods was a tricky one at first but somehow i managed to get a solid picture of what the lecturer wants me to learn... financial management is sooo muchhhh funnnnnn!!! the lecturer's way of teaching is soo similar to a friend of mine.. hehehe!!! besides, i get to swear in his class!!! huahaha!!! MIT... need i say more??? its basically FIS and MIS rolled into 1... *yawn* been there, done that!!

there's this quote that one of my lecturers imparted with me in a lecture, "unlearn the past, invent the future"..... i've been reading thru my older blogs... i sounded like a freakin brat!! its to late to delete the posts anyway so i just keep them as a reminder of how stupid and foolish i was back then.... a very painful reminder.... with the words of wisdom imparted upon me, i shall unlearn my past and invent my future... there is so much us humans can do when we put our heart and soul into it... truth be told, humans are capable of changing... it just takes time... dats all.... i used to think i was already mature... but i was wrong.... even at this moment in time, i dont think i'm mature yet... maturity is a state of mind... its not dependent on age, gender or anythin... its hard to explain, yet easily recogniseable....

well..... i'm beat.... besides i'm fasting rite now.. hahaha.. well, its off to bed now!!!! hahahahah!!!!! thats it people, party is over!!!! adios!!