16 April 2005 (The Loneliness)

just when you think u can achieve something, something else comes up.. third place... we got 3rd place for the bowling tourney.. oh well, i suppose since we played like crap i suppose we deserve it.. hahaha.. ever since N when went back, we've been msg a lot n i mean a lot.. plus we've been talkin on the fone.. even though there's like a 7 hour time difference i still manage to be able 2 talk.. since i dun even go into class most of the time so its no big deal.. its been a long time since i've had a conversation with someone.. u kno the kind of conversation dat u pour your out wats in your heart n soul because u kno dat other person is willing to listen.. n in return they pour out theirs.. it like a mutual exchange.. sharing feelings help me cope with stress.. she feels the same way 2.. i guess we need each others support.. since we have certain things in common its pretty easy for us to talk bout stuff.. i kno she's goin through tough times.. school, relationships, life.. all of that is going to shit.. i didnt expect to ever warm up to her u kno? at first i thought wow she's in med school, she's goin 2 be a doctor, she has a boyfriend who loves her... the fact was her boyfriend treats her like crap.. since i found out about i cant stop thinkin dat in someways she's just like me.. she once told me dat all she wanted was happiness.. the freaky thing was i 2 just wanted happiness.. u kno some people take it for granted.. i've been through a lot of shit n i kno dat the most important thing in life, is happiness.. it doesnt really matter who u share it with.. its the thought dat counts.. so the both of us are really just tryin to make each other happy.. to make our loneliness disappear.. although i'm spendin a fortune msgin her, in the end its all worth it.. at least i'm not alone.. at least i'm happy.. adios...